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Breathe, keep breathing. Don't lose your nerve" -
Radiohead



Page 54: 25 [+1] Songs (edited version)

/ Tuesday, March 29, 2011 /
 image source: here

Have you ever fall in love with a song that have beautiful lyrics and music, but often make you feel a little bit gloomy inside? I have. Not just one song, but like..a lot. :D
Although I've never been in the same situation which those songs described. Well, not precisely :p

1.    The Cure – Letter to Elise
2.    Sigur ros – Vaka
3.    Gabrielle – Out of Reach
4.    Suede – Simon
5.    Radiohead – Fog
6.    Radiohead – Let Down
7.    Bjork – Possibly Maybe
8.    Mew – Behind D Drapes
9.    The Strokes – What Ever Happened
10.    Amy Winehouse – Love is a Losing Game
11.    Beirut – Cliquot
12.    Kla Project – Gerimis
13.    Tori Amos – A Sorta Fairytale
14.     Tori Amos – Gold Dust
15.    Aqualung – Easier To Lie
16.    The Verve – The Drugs Don’t Work
17.    Yeah Yeah Yeahs – Runaway
18.    Eminem – Mocking Bird
19.    Silverchair – After All These Years
20.    Portishead – Nobody Loves Me
21.    Dave Matthews Band – The Dreaming Trees
22.    R.E.M – Everybody Hurts
23.    Cranberries – Linger
24.    Arctic Monkeys – Dance Little Liar
25.    Blonde Redhead – My Impure Hair

That’s all I can’t think of for right now. Oh, hey, what’s on your list? :D

P.S. I forgot to put Jewel - Foolish Games on the original list. My bad :p

Page 53: Fold and Fun

/ Monday, March 28, 2011 /

If you can't find a unicorn...
fold one 
;)

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Unicorn is a solitary mythical creature. Some say it symbolizes hope and dreams. So i folded it few days ago to remind myself that i can "fold" and build my dreams. That at least, i should give it a shot first :D

Page 52: Pray for Japan

/ Thursday, March 17, 2011 /
Shocked and grieved after watched terrifying video of the Japan tsunami and earthquake that happened last Friday (March 11, 2011). My deep condolences to everybody who had to go through the events…
:(

Meanwhile, found this marvelous, well-written and touching article about Japan’s strength after the disaster.


So let's pray for Japan :)

Page 51: Petite Story of Feet

/ Tuesday, March 15, 2011 /

I like to take pictures of my feet. Wearing shoes, of course, because they don’t look pretty cute without ‘em. x)

Why? To remind myself when shite happens that, “hey, I’m still here.”

That I still have tools to go to places I want. Search things I crave. Create my own adventure. Walking, running, hopping, stomping, dancing, playing and learning. Sometimes these feet get tired, but somehow, I know they’ll be fine. And sometimes they get lost in this big and absurd carnival called life, but I believe they know when to stop and start to seek the right path.

Be strong, feet. Be good. :)

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Interpol - "Heinrich Maneuver"
Ah, strut those shoes
We'll go roaming in the night

Page 50: Protect me from what I can’t have

/ Thursday, March 10, 2011 /

“Dear God, please protect me from what I can’t have… Please”

Been uttering those words over and over again in my pray, since last year. And it’s becoming more often, lately. Right after regularly, “thank you, God, for keeping me alive. Please watch over me, those whom I love, and those who love me, and bless us with goodness…”

It helped me to cope with my broken heart, in the middle of 2010. The pain that came after I’ve decided to get over four years complicated, err, I really don’t know what label I should put on it. Well, of course I don’t know, otherwise I wouldn’t call it complicated, would I? Silly… x)

Let’s just call “it”, mixed feelings, shall we? Because, I really don’t know what he felt for me, at that time. Formerly, I knew he likes me. But we’re apart for a while, and that’s when I found difficulties to read him. Had asked him and he kept his mouth zipped. It would be much much easier, actually, if he just blurt it all out. Like, “no, I don’t have any special feeling for you anymore” or “I once had a thing for you, but it’s over now” or “you’re just a rebound each time I ended my relationship with someone, because I know you’ll always be there, waiting for me”. Yeah, it would be easier for me, if he just says it. But he didn’t. And it’s not his fault. Not entirely. I also had my contribution in that stupid twirls. That unhealthy foolish game.

At that point, I realized I can’t have him. That he doesn’t belong to me. *D’oh, where have you been?”* Yes, he gave me some affections, praised me, et cetera et cetera in the past. But what’s the point? Action speaks louder than words? Hmm, I’m not fully agreed with this anymore. I’m insensitive person. Guess I need a whole package: a pair of statement and treatment. Just between me and him, something personal and ours.

Okay, enough of this pathetic “commemoration” of me being idiot. What I’m trying to say is that I never mention about that protection in my pray when I was at that phase. That somehow, I let myself being clumsily unprotected by forgot to remind myself that, not all things I fancied belong to me. I still need The Almighty to protect me from my own desire that could destruct me.

Right now, I choose to cast the spell each time I remember a person, or something I want. Hope it’ll turn into some kind of precaution from getting hurt. That God will remove my passion from things I want but won’t be mine. I’m still a dreamer, thou, an arrogant one; hang my dreams up in the sky. :D
Guess I still remember the pain in the past. How my heart was the ransom. How it broke and how distraught I was when searching its pieces.

Let’s say, right now I’m just a bit tired.
At this time, it’s not only about someone, but for everything. Everything I want but (perhaps) I can’t have…
But I’m fine. Fine enough :)

Page 49: Sometimes... (part 5)

/ Tuesday, March 8, 2011 /
Knowing is good...
But sometimes, 
some things 
are better keep sealed 

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Page 48: never.fail.to.boost.my.mood

/ Monday, March 7, 2011 /

even a bad cup of coffee is better than no coffee at all.
- David Lynch -

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indeed...
:)

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P.S: gonna post something about coffee, but i need to get rid of this influenza first with vitamin C, medicines, and lotsa sleep :|
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Page 47: Happiness Trigger #2: Books

/ Friday, March 4, 2011 /
How my parents told me about my childhood always reminds me ‘bout the greatest gift from them: efforts to raise me. Raising a child isn’t just about feed them with nutritious foods. Or give them cool toys. It’s more. How you teach them about responsibility, moral, kindness, and stuff. I guess that’s why my mom used to said, “You won’t understand until you becoming a parent” each time we argued about her rules (and why sometimes I broke it :p ).

Once, my mom said, she kinda raised me in library. Haha. It was a nice breezy Sunday morning when she found me sitting near a window in our dining room, read a book. Like always, she would ask about the content, how many books I bought that month, and which one’s my favorite (if I bought more than one).



“Do you remember when I used to take you to my office and leave you with books, papers and a pen for hours, when you’re kid?” she asked. And I nod. My mom is a librarian in a Medicine Faculty, University of Indonesia. Every year, me and my big sister spent couple of days during school holiday in her office. She’d leave us with books, papers, pen and crayon; so she could work peacefully. She told us to talk in low voice, while whispering’s better, and silence would be the best choice. *and it was very, very difficult job for us :D

After office hours, she’d take us to Senen or Gramedia Matraman to bought books and Album Donal Bebek (ADK). Sometimes we chose second-hand ADK because it’s cheaper. Hehe. I still remember the price, Rp.300 each. :)

My mom was quite hard and strict about our education. For instance:
1.    She wouldn’t let me and my sister have cedal-tounge (suffer from speech defect characterized by pronunciation of ”R“ as a tap or as “L”). I remember the lesson she used to give when we were little. One hour, every Sunday, each of us would sit in front of her and she’d say some words containing “R” and we have to say it correctly.
2.    When we’re doing our homework, we’re not allowed to ask her, or my father, OR ANY OTHER HUMAN BEING for the answer before we read all the material in the text book and we were sure it’s not written there. If we’d come to her to ask, and she checked our text book, and found the answers printed there, she gave us the “have-I-told-you-to-seek-it-first-dar-ling-?!” look in a quite intimidating manner. :p
3.    She wanted us to fluently read before starting our education at elementary school. And she was very proud when she knew we didn’t use spelling method in class like other kids in first grade.

But her rules also made me found one of my biggest passions: books. According to my mom, during my second year in Kindergarten, I’ve spent 3 months at home, and the rest at Kindergarten library. Second year? Yes, second! So here’s the story. I was born in January 1985 and almost six years old when the school year for the first grade begun. But somehow the desired private school which my mom had chose for me, didn’t accept me, because I haven’t reached 6.

I already read fluently when I was 5. And I was easily-getting-bored kind of kid. I was so happy imagining myself going to be first grade student. Because it means that I’ll have more books to read. So when I couldn’t start my days as an elementary school student, I was pissed and sad. To cheer me up, my mom brought me books and toys, and registered me at the same kindergarten. At first day, I told my mom, “I’d rather stay at home. They gave me the same lesson I had last year. It’s boring.”

Three months stayed at home wasn’t that bad. Errr, still boring, tho. Hahaha. Until principal’s wife/ teacher, Mrs. Maryatin, came to visit and told me that kindergarten library had completely renovated and I should take a look at it. She also told me about lotsa new books, and I can read all of them every day without obligation to attend class! Just read whatever I want in that library. And of course, I took that offer. :D

During college, I met friends with same interest in books. Even planned dreamed, to make a book store and library next to my friend tetta’s future coffee shop. :))

I wish one day I’ll write my own book and see it in book stores, or meet my favorite authors like; Gaarder, Palahniuk, Gaiman, Burton, Coelho, DiCamillo, Connolly, Pullman, etc. Orrrr, at least (at least???) I can have a cozy library in my future home. I searched some references *sounds too early and delusional, I know*, and found these.











images courtesy: here, here, and here


It’s lovely, isn’t it?
Meanwhile, I have to be satisfied with this. :D






Do you like to sniff books? Well, I do.
:)

Page 46: [random] Untitled

/ Tuesday, March 1, 2011 /


Recently fall for this picture…
This ‘Untitled’ picture from Zora Strangefields

Maybe because of its slight sweetness and simplicity,
Or it might caused by the surprise expression in the man’s eye, and the woman that looks sincere.

Maybe because,
Somehow, this picture reminds me of my favorite 'Untitled' song

Surprise, sometimes, will come around
Surprise, sometimes, will come around
I will surprise you sometime.
I'll come around

Oh, I will surprise you sometime.
I'll come around when you're down...

Yep, it’s 'Untitled' from Interpol :D

Whose 'Untitled' song is your favorite, by the way?
   [Yes, you, I’m asking you, my dear friends
    And you, dear unknown visitor(s)
    And you,
    My dear...nothing… *Do you read this? :) ]

C'mon, c'mon, tell me :)

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