Last year, I decided that I have to go somewhere outside Jakarta every
year on my birthday. To remind myself that the traffic and shitty parts of this
city haven’t made me immune to that thought that I have to make my life more
interesting with traveling.
It’s kinda hard actually, because in January, especially in this island
where I live, Java, monsoon occurs from September to February. If only I had
that power to turn every single hair on my armpits into diamond, I could easily
go to anywhere I want. But of course, I can’t, and because of the budget, I
have to plan my trip wisely.
So last year I went to Bromo and this year I went to Kawah Putih,
Bandung. I was planning to go to Mount Prau, Dieng actually. But with the rain
and wind, I changed my destination to Kawah Putih, Bandung. And I didn’t regret
it. Not at all. It’s safer and I still had beautiful scenery right in front of
my eyes.
I went with cool people who also took a trip with me to Vietnam and
Cambodia. Have you ever had that feeling when you finally found your travel
buddies? Those people you can travel with because you know you won’t have that
urge to kill them immediately on the first week exploring new places with them?
That’s how I feel about them. I heart their idiosyncrasies and quirkiness. I had
fun.
And when I got back, my most favorite foreigners in Jakarta gave me
surprise with music performance, gift, and scrumptious Japanese food. Happy belly!
Thanks buddies!
Turns out, being 29 isn't that bad. So far so good. Although I still have lotsa
questions in my head, inexplicable feelings about life and erratic dreams with
no map that could show me the fast-right-safe path to reach them. Not to
mention bombarded with silly questions about decisions I made for my life from
people who (maybe) just want me to see them as good role models.
I can’t tell whether I’ve surrendered and just embrace whatever comes
or not. Not for everything, just for some parts. I’ve learned to sincerely let
go of good people who have carved good memories in my brain and heart (because
some of them will be in other countries this year and yes I know I can just
utilize technology to keep in touch with them, but for me it won’t be same). I’ve
learned that I still have trust issues when it comes to friendship and relationship
(because although you have treated people nicely, some people just wouldn’t have
that consideration that you’re important for them), but I still think that if I
treat people nicely while keeping my expectation low will guard me from being
hurt.
No. I can’t tell whether I’ve surrendered and just embrace it.
But I can tell that I’m wiser and calmer.
I think.
Thank you 2013. Thank you 28. Thank you good people. Thank you God. J
So take the photographs, and
still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health
and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin
on trial
For what it's worth it was worth
all the while
It's something unpredictable, but
in the end is right,
I hope you had the time of your
life.
Green Day - Good Riddance
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